It’s Not Creepy If They Like It

Struck the nerve less tampered in the base of my spine
Best friend, a next lover, for a week of my time
Denial let it happen, logic failed to contravene
He whispered in the twilight as I feigned it all a dream

Now if these pillows could talk, I’d forfeit all respite
Unresponsive I recoiled, obliging and polite
The suicide bombing that he knew would be a win
Chucked the bait, bit the hook, and I let him reel me in

Fleeting down the fire escape as he neared top floor
Vilified the drive, but I was gone before he closed the door
Drafting words of last goodbyes, as I vowed my return
Poured petrol on the truth so this even playing field would burn

Traces of potential left bobbing face-down in the pool
Plunged straight into the ice chest, Molly salvaged traces of her cool
Solidified arm’s length as I liquefied the refuge in my cave
Drowning out the present in nothing but the birthday sweater that he gave

Lamenting all the options fear would snipe on sight in range
An oath it wouldn’t change, but the tones became estranged
Take every pride that I preside on the greener side of the hill
The intrigue of my charm, behind the smile I’m never standing still

Then I watched him emphasize his issues, the tables start to twirl
Slipped away from being the homie, I became just another girl
Paranoid, I flushed it down, evidence too incriminating
Corrupting fervor with words the setting sails were obviating

Behind enemy lines I welcomed him with security in short supply
Once ally now my adversary; he knew just where the bodies lie
Too proud to make this personal, not the standard ball and chain
Verboten from my pyrotechnics, no cremating these remains

So now I drift up on his pedestal when we’re not eye to eye
In the flesh he’s on my stool, but not before I knot the ties
My fourth, great love, my interactive diary, incarnate
He twisted the twine around the pine, and climbed up to ingratiate

I gave him what he came for, I let him take the reigns
I applauded his ascension and left nothing left to gain
On my pedestal he brandished, unaware of what came next
For I kicked the stool beneath him, and watched him dangle by his neck.

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Till Death Do Us Part

The life and death of stars, none so divine or forlorn
Fighting the odds to spite orthodoxies and refuse to conform
Stellar evolution, marked by gravitational collapse
Ditched my halo in the heavens to become human, perhaps

Began with the bat of a lash and the wink of an eye
Fastened myself into the death-seat to ride ’til I die
The bass shook the rear-view, till hindsight fell behind us
The world was our oyster, so long as the law couldn’t find us

Shock waves fading from the currents in your ocean
Removed ice from my nerves to feel the sprain of emotion
I resigned to stare you down as you stood me up
The birth of a luminous love the doors couldn’t shut

Exchanged the name while the ink stains ordained
Two crazy kids lost in the heart of the game
I fueled your ego, as you broke my spirits
You left me in isolation to inspire these lyrics

Cars left on bricks, shotguns on shoulders
Stories to omit to the children when older
Money on books for a sentence unfinished
A trip from the country as my letters diminished

I crept into those beds out of desperation to cope
Images of the mistresses caught in the back of my throat
Standing on my driveway, summoning the clouds
You embedded the threats, as I shredded the vows

Then I abused my beliefs when I begged to a god
Betrayed poise as the tears broke through the facade
The price for my freedom was to walk with it forever
The break of these ties will stunt every future endeavor

Determined, I pent up the hate as I harnessed the will
Crept back in those arms to impress how I wanted you still
Inveigled my freedom, as the ultimate promise bled
Hawked the proof at a pawnshop to spite every word said

With the tip of a ball point, I sold my soul for the run
You wedded the next. I can’t count the number I’ve strung
We gathered everything sacred and set it ablaze
Left to burn in the flames, emerged in a state of malaise

Put on a pendant of jade, disguised the tertiary burns
Now karma’s a bitch, that’s why I’m concerned
Eight years have passed, and I still look both ways
Because I owe you a death, while you owe me a grave.

-Supernova

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Consuming Personalities

In a struggle with weight, tipping balance like cows
Typing with a cigarette hoodwinks the drowse
Ricocheting against walls as if it’s pinball
Stand every ground but where my foot tends to fall
Grown accustomed to the marvel of change in the ceiling
Eyes painted black, is the very nadir of appealing
Sharpen this point ’cause this meaning’s gone dull
It’s hard to fill up when you never get full
Hard to give love when you can’t even give care
It’s a packaged deal, if I could remember where
I left me last night, last week, last year
Been lost for a while, though I’m standing right here
Run from the fear, but the fear is the run
Scared of being shot ’cause I’m the one holding this gun
Native to the travel, and I’ll never leave home
Mimic the windsock, only move when I’m blown
So long in these woods, can’t fathom the day
Foresight is nebulous at two hours away
I can’t wish to be with you, ’cause I’m here with you now
If I wasn’t this aberrant, I wouldn’t be around

Then I blinked, it went light, reality came crashing in
Barraging the realization I already had to begin
Never had him, I know. To begin with, I knew
Didn’t stand a chance—my reason to sit this one through
The observer effect, applied to romance
The feet stopped moving when he asked me to dance
The smallest of touch condemns fingerprints
Moment written in time, turn the page, before I crimple it
Window shopping, because I’m saddled to a mirror
Don’t like to cuddle, don’t come any nearer
Let him turn and walk, before I turn and run
Keep it all between the lipstick and his stick of gum
I’d get it together, if I knew where I left it
I’d come out of the bathroom but the window seemed like the best fit
So now these cigarettes aren’t going to smoke themselves
And the look he’s giving me, beats, damn near anything else
Truth has one color, but lies have it all
Chances are slim, and he’s not that tall
Seven seconds of short term, and I’m trying to recall
From the fast lane looking for any reason to stall
He’s the best thing that ever happened to the last of my week
But it’s next and he’s next, so am I. ‘Til the next, time we speak
Closed my eyes, fell in love, saw the life, saw the end
But there’s no fun in a map for every unforeseen bend
Turned that one out, and now turn it back in
And leave him in the fridge of ‘the what could’ve been.

“Perhaps we have yet to be truthful enough, about what truthful is,”
-Nietzsche

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In N Out Like A Robbery

The phone rings and the R rifles the mind
Ex doesn’t mark the spot shivering down the spine
I scribble the words to actuate feel
Lugubriosity stamped in hot wax with a seal
Strong as a rock, but it’s caught in his shoe
Looking for the door as he’s looking askew
To the bone this raw emotion is scavenged by vultures
His inattention to detail is giving me ulcers
I took feel so I could take care
Misplaced the weight for less clothes to wear
As the baggage grows lighter, pack even less thought
The junkie junkets a bit more than a lot
Afraid of the feeling and feeling afraid
Clipped the wings with the titles I let him engrave
I don’t like you; I like the way you look at me
The irony is in the charm feigning an entry
Stole the two cents from the base of my wishing well
Fuck the grammar, because I’m caught up in the spell
The reason I tap out, is because I’m tapped in
The reason I play the game, is because I can’t win.

I can’t stand it, can’t take it, can’t make it, can’t keep it
Can’t force it, can’t steal it, and can’t help but feel it.

Am I missing in action?
No, I am found in action.

I am a parasite.
I came. I saw. I conquered. I left.

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